I Am Cancer Free, Praise the Lord!

I just wanted to provide a quick update, if you are friends with me on Facebook then you have already heard the good news; I had my CT scan today, and got the results. I am cancer free, indeed! My oncologist said that I

Sky tram at OHSU, while we waited for the results from my CT scan today.

Sky tram at OHSU, while we waited for the results from my CT scan today.

have beaten the odds, and that I don’t need to come back for another CT scan for a year (this last time was a 9 mos. span). After that he said I won’t need to come back at all (except once a year for blood work, which is just to monitor my bone marrow and the effects of the chemo from the past—which at this point is negligible). All I can say, is Praise the Lord!!! And thank all of you for supporting me and my family through prayer and other support over the years.

The Lord is so good, and I don’t deserve to have been healed the way that I have been—He is gracious!

Let me end this post with something I wrote while I still had cancer on my ‘cancer update blog’ (actually when I posted the following, I was cancer free, a month out from my resection surgery, and just getting back into some follow up chemo treatments—I was being reflective on a question that plagued me that entire time: i.e. why was I apparently getting better, when so many other Christians I knew were dying from their cancer diagnoses? This is the question I am engaging with in this post I wrote back then). Here it is:

Something that has plagued me at points through this season is the question of “why” some folks die from cancer and some folks don’t. At moments the “enemy” has said ‘look they’re a good Christian, and yet they have died from their cancer; so will you’. The reality is, is that death has indeed been conquered by our Lord; so in moments like those, at the depth, I can say so what . . . but that’s usually not my response, truth be told — I want to continue to live!!!

But it does cause you to wonder “why;” why do some die and some don’t? The Lord has pointed me to a particular passage of scripture to help with this real life issue:

15When they had finished eating, Jesus said to Simon Peter, “Simon son of John, do you truly love me more than these?”
“Yes, Lord,” he said, “you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Feed my lambs.”
16Again Jesus said, “Simon son of John, do you truly love me?”
He answered, “Yes, Lord, you know that I love you.”
Jesus said, “Take care of my sheep.”

17 The third time he said to him, “Simon son of John, do you love me?”
Peter was hurt because Jesus asked him the third time, “Do you love me?” He said, “Lord, you know all things; you know that I love you.”

Jesus said, “Feed my sheep. 18 I tell you the truth, when you were younger you dressed yourself and went where you wanted; but when you are old you will stretch out your hands, and someone else will dress you and lead you where you do not want to go.” 19Jesus said this to indicate the kind of death by which Peter would glorify God. Then he said to him, “Follow me!”

20Peter turned and saw that the disciple whom Jesus loved was following them. (This was the one who had leaned back against Jesus at the supper and had said, “Lord, who is going to betray you?”) 21When Peter saw him, he asked, “Lord, what about him?”

22Jesus answered, “If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you? You must follow me.” 23Because of this, the rumor spread among the brothers that this disciple would not die. But Jesus did not say that he would not die; he only said, “If I want him to remain alive until I return, what is that to you?”

This passage of scripture doesn’t necessarily answer the question “why” in detail; but it does say something to what can look very random (i.e. the fact that some die from cancer and some don’t). And that is that the Lord has a different plan for each one of us; He has tailored exactly how it is that He wants us to live out our lives in service to Him. For some that means He’s going to call us home (sooner) and for others of us later. This is what the Lord has constantly been impressing upon me through this season; that He’s in total control, and that just because “this” person or “that” person is taken through cancer, does not mean that I am necessarily going to go home through this cancer. In fact this cancer might just be a catalyst for something else the Lord has in mind for me and my family while on this earth.

Now I’ve applied what Jesus said to Peter in this context to my situation; but this is just as easily applied to any and all of our situations and life circumstances. The reality is, is that there is nothing normative about any circumstances we face in life; in other words there is a special plan laid out for each one of us, and our particular life stories and circumstances all differ one from the other — according to the plans and purposes of the Lord for us. I think sometimes we all fall prey to wondering why that person or this person seems to “make it;” and others don’t. The bottom line is that the Lord is in control of each of our lives in very personal and intimate ways. [see the original post here]

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9 Responses to I Am Cancer Free, Praise the Lord!

  1. gdsandeen says:

    Praise Jesus!

    I hope that, as you learn more about the Triune God through this personal encounter, you try not to spend too much time on the “why” question and more on the “what!” In that way, we’re looking and moving towards God’s plan instead of being dragged into it!

    God bless you!


  2. Bobby Grow says:

    Hi GD,

    Thank you!

    Now how do you know what I focus on in my work? It seems like a natural kind of existential response to engage with the question the way that I did; indeed this is part of doing theology. And as you’ll notice, what gave shape to my ‘why’ question gave way to and was determined by the who question. Nevertheless, asking why is not foreign to the kind of existential angst and dark knight of the soul that Jesus himself faced while in Gethsemne; he finally ends up in simply trusting the Father, as does my reflection above.

    It is a little hard for me then to appreciate your point.



  3. gdsandeen says:

    Forgive me! My response wasn’t fleshed out, at all.

    I just re-read the comment and I phrased it so awkwardly that it sounds like a corrective but it was actually intended to be an “amen!” I wasn’t disagreeing with anything you said; or trying to suggest that anybody should abandon the “why!” In fact, it was when you transitioned from the “why” question, into the “who,” that impressed me to say something!

    Really, I was just piggy backing, and attempting to encourage you, with what you said when you wrote, “He has tailored exactly how it is that He wants us to live out our lives in service to Him.”

    This is what I was referring to as the “what question.” I think to ask God “why” something happens assumes we understand what God is doing, in the first place. By acknowledging God’s particular plans for us I felt you transitioned away from “God, why are you doing this; why did I live?” to, “God, what are you up to?”

    My end comment of “we’re looking and moving towards God’s plan instead of being dragged into it!’ was a reflection on the passage you used, in verse 22. I thought it all tied together beautifully!

    P.S. – You had a little typo when you wrote, “dark knight of the soul.” It should read “Dark Knight of the soul.” 😀


  4. Bobby Grow says:

    I make many typos when I comment via my phone, and when I write blog posts in general. It is bloggy, not formal theological writing. You can check that kind of writing out from me by reading our edited book Evangelical Calvinism Essays Resourcing the Continuing Reformation of the Church which you can find a link for in the sidebar. I also have transcribed a few of theses Myk Habets and I cowrote here on the blog: check EC Theses in my sidebar.

    What I intended to project in my reflection was ultimately a posture of trust and relation of faith toward knowing God which reflects my theological methodology the analogia fidei.

    And I don’t really like Batman ;-).

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  5. Matt Lambert says:

    That’s fantastic news, Bobby! In my own physical challenges, I have been rendered speechless by God’s goodness. I’m thankful God has preserved you and that bright mind of yours! Praise be to God!


  6. Bobby Grow says:

    Hi Matt,

    Thank you brother! God is good!!


  7. steve z says:

    Awesome Bobby.


  8. Wonderful news, Bobby!


  9. Bobby Grow says:


    Thank you! 🙂




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